Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Well hello there.

Well this is probably going to be awfully scattered....

Over the course of the last year, almost year and a half...I have so very much wanted to blog. There is such a fine line between blogging, venting, and pouring out your very soul for everyone to read. In my family, on any given day, I could very much do every single one....some even all in the same day. Sometimes I feel like I'm only a taxi driver being beckoned from here to there...and other days I feel so close to the Lord, and like such a child of the King...that I can almost feel Him in the living room with me. So, I guess I'm saying, that over time, I felt like I couldn't post about a down day...because I thought somehow it might appear that I love the Lord less. My downfall (one of them), is that I'm a very, very transparent person. It's almost impossible for me to hide my feelings. It's almost impossible for me to fake it if I'm irritated....or depressed...or worried....or excited...or happy....or anything. Pretty much, I'm a "what you see is what you get" kind of person. Over the last year, we've had many, many ups and downs. I've wanted to post about the good...but then didn't want to see too fake that we had it all together all the time. Does that make any sense at all?? So, here I am. The good, the bad, and the ugly. For all the world to see....well, maybe 6 or 7 of you at least. My life is crazy, hectic, but amazingly fun, and REAL. I'm hoping that if more and more people understand that Hollywood is just that...Hollywood, it'll give some people hope. That 'off the wall' might really be what is "normal"...if that even exists. Maybe I'll get going again. Just a warning though....I might take a day to vent....or moan....or rejoice. Or do nothing but post lyrics to a song that has moved me to the core. But whatever is posted...it will be ME...and just ME.