Friday, August 31, 2007


After several days of total confusion and frustration, I have officially fed ex'd more paperwork off to USCIS today! I was shocked to find out that the New Orleans office was STILL closed, so I sent my package once again to Memphis. I feel like a giant load has been lifted off my shoulders. I really don't know why I feel like that though. Sometimes I feel like our own government is as easy to deal with as China's. Meaning, there really is no guarantee that I re did our paperwork correctly. Meaning, they could send it back to us next week, telling us something else to do. The challenge is, the phrase of the week is: "It varies from state to state". How is that possible? It is the United States Citizenship and Immigration Services. But I digress...

This morning, I got up and read Becky's blog for the day. A train wreck immediately ensued. I really turned into an emotional mess for a short period of time. Becky said she received pictures of Laney 'growing up', and that some of the pictures were difficult to look at because the conditions in the orphanage were not good. My heart was crushed! I melted into a puddle wanting desperately to get on a plane, (did I just say that??!!), and go get my daughter. It is just such a strange phenomenon to fully grasp and accept that my daughter is in an orphanage. I haven't even put my children in daycare, and now my 4th child has spent 14 months in an orphanage. I want her out, and she should be out!! It is way past time. Why is it that I feel like I have made so much more progress in going to get my child now that I have mailed a package to Memphis. Strange. But it is progress, and it had to be done.


Carla said...

Oh don't even get me started on USCIS! I think, in some cases, China's paperwork is easier to deal with. It's all the same and laid out in a NICE somewhat clear way. But what I have to have for our own government is so varied it's ridiculous!